So far I have been associating each month with a certain theme. April was letting go. I’ve learned recently that contentment comes from unattachment. This includes unattachment to things, habits, people, anything. In the past and even currently I have found myself relying on my relationships to sustain contentment. I become more authentic when I don’t rely on others for emotional support. It has brought me sadness to be alone in my presence because I forgot how to enjoy myself without distractions. When my experiences with others turn dejected, I turn to external sources to divert myself from the main problem. Being alone is painful when the self is beyond recognition.
April’s main intention helped let go of external habits and change them, such as getting back into a morning routine. I think that May’s intention is going to be similarly focused, though I want to focus more on emotional unattachment rather than the physical.
